Chapter 41
Experience
on feeling of
‘Oneness’
191.
12th November, 1976.
Friday.
Early morning dream: I was going somewhere accompanied by 2-3
devotees, talking with each other . Suddenly a middle-aged lady was noticed and
looking around it was noticed that the place was like the market area of
Kadamtala, Howrah. Then after reaching near Bantra Public Library, I noticed
more devotees accompanying me. I got the news that Jibankrishna again came back to Kadamtala
after his demise. However, hastily I was going to Jibankrishna’s house, and
noticed that the Lady was still following me talking with 2-3 unknown persons.
I walked advance and with surprice noticed that now I was going on a very big
flat van-riksaw full of all the devotees of Jibankrishna. could not understand
how all the devotees were accommodated on the rikshaw! Among the devotees I
could only remember the faces of Hirendra Chattopadhyaya and Bhola Mukherjee
and besides the devotees there were so many unknown persons on rikshaw. Just
reaching at the entrance of Kedar Deuti Lane where Jibankrishna used to live,
all the devotees got down from the rikshaw . My heart was palpitating with
great excitement and joy and when I wanted to pay the rikshaw-van fare, Arun Ghosh wanted to prevent me from paying,
but without listening to him I was going to pay 4 nos of 10 paise coins hastily
but as one coin dropped down I handed over the three coins to Mr. Ghosh for
payment. Just at this moment the dream went off as I woke up suddenly.
The dream means thus: To go to the Holy Ghost means the austerity
is continuing; to carry all the devotees and unknown persons indicates the
spiritual capacity of the seer; to pay 30 paise for fare means the devotees and
innumerable people seeing Jibankrishna within them will have austerity of 30%
capacity and in future and through me Jibankrishna may manifest in innumerable
people. The lady is Adyasakti or Holy Mother with the help of whom the effect
may come.
Forecast
about the future
of the seer
192.
15th November, 1976. Monday.
Early morning dream: I saw in front of me one of my friend named
Siddhartha and Sudhindra Nath Sinha a senior devotee of Jibankrishna. Siddhartha was asking Mr.
Sinha, ‘Can we take wine with food?’ But Mr. Sinha addressing me said, ‘No! No!
So many things will happen in future through you’. Hearing this I thought—what
are ‘so many things’? With these thoughts I woke up.
The dream indicates
the future about the seer.
Vision
of Future about
the seer
193. 16th November, 1976. Tuesday,
Early morning dream: I was distributing curd among many people
including my elder brother and then the dream went off.
The dream indicates
the future of the seer that through him lots of work of Jibankrishna may be done for the benefit of
human being.
Spiritual
practices through
company of devotees
194. 17th November, 1976.
Wednesday.
Early morning dream: I had a long accompaniment with Ashim Biswas, a devotee, although no facts
were remembered later on after waking up.
It means that such
frequent accompaniment with devotees in dreams will have an infinite effect
within the seer in future. Jibankrishna
once said in his previous dream long time ago. ‘See, this is very good that you
are having such company with devotees. The more you will have such company, the
more you will get practical effects of your dream’.
Here Ashim means
infinite.
Rule
with an iron
hand by the
Holy Ghost
195. 19th November, 1976. Friday.
Early morning dream: A room was seen, almost alike the room of Sri
Jibankrishna at Kadamtala, Howrah, but much bigger than it and full of so many
devotees. It was four or 5 o’clock in the afternoon. Jibankrishna was seated
there. At this moment Khitish Roychoudhury entered the room. Seeing him Jibankrishna said, ‘Oh Khitish, you have come
! come, come, let us sit at the corridor! Saying this he started coming to
door, Khitish was still standing near the door. Seeing the motive of
Jibankrishna it seemed to the seer as if he intended to do ‘Saakti’(spiritual
hypnotism by touching the body) on Khitish. But he said, ‘no, no! I don’t need
it! Then Jibankrishna was seated at the corridor. Many other devotees including me were seated inside the room and some
in the corridor. Jibankrishna was looking very strong and bright without any
sign of old age as he would be now 83 (In reality he would be so), which seemed
to me in the dream. After a while he was in deep meditation and sitting near
the door two devotees began to chat with each other, sometimes having jokes
also. Seeing this I was becoming irritated thinking whether I would say
something. Jibankrishna’s meditation was off and with a great anger he slapped
on the back of one of those two devotees who was joking much virulently. That
devotee immediately left that place getting frightened and another one
shivering with a great fear was seated like a good boy with shedding tears. At
this time I was awakened.
[Here the dream
indicated two aspects: the condition of Khitish was revealed that he is beyond
emotion and devotion. The condition of the seer was revealed through another
one that under any condition the seer will be controlled under the stern rule
of the Holy Ghost.]