Chapter 31
Achievement
of dispassionate condition
143. 3rd July, 1976.
Early morning
dream: I had gone to Jamshedpur and roam
here and there. Then I went to a house full of many persons. I sat among them.
My bag was kept in front of me. It was full of many articles among which some
were for hobby. After a while the meeting was closed and while I was going to
take my bag I noticed that it was stolen. A known person named Nirmalya was
found in front of me. I told him to search for my bag but he did not pay any
attention to this matter. Then I saw
Dilip Mitra, a companion of Jibankrishna (Diamond). I took him to be
accompanied. I had the feeling in my mind that those fellows (Nirmalya etc) had
no intimate relation to me, they never bothered for me, but on the contrary
these persons (Dilip etc) were my own. Then while going out, one of my shoes
was stuck to the mud. I took out that shoe, but instantly thought—Oh! What am I
going to search for! We can have nor anybody neither any wealth! That is why
the bag was stolen!
In the next scene I
saw Dwijendranath Roy of Ghatshila, a senior companion of Jibankrishna. After a while I saw a child
sitting on the shoulder of a man was paying his homage to me with folded
hands. With astonishment I was
thinking—such a small child, how could he learn to pay homage in such a way!
There after the dream went off.
[The dream signifies
thus: The first scene shows the
dispassionate condition of the seer; the second and third scene signify the
‘Dwijatwa’(The state of Supreme Cult) and ‘Debatya’(The state of Divinity) conditions of the seer.]
Blessings
of the Holy Ghost
poured upon
144. 4th July, 1976.
Noon time
dream: I was standing on a bus stand
waiting for the bus. At this moment I noticed that Anannda Mohan Ghosh, Diamond
or Jibankrishna’s companion was seated on the bus . I opened a paper to read
what Jibankrishna had said in dreams to
the seer. After the dream was off I forgot the sayings.
[The dream indicates
that the blessings are always showered upon the seer from the Holy Ghost.]
Vision of the Universe and experience on
origin of life
145. On 4th July,1976, after the previous dream in the evening in
trance I had the following experience:
I started
approaching towards the outer space. I crossed different spheres and then the
blue color earth was seen, which ultimately disappeared. Then I reached a void
zone. Gradually I reached a zone just like a condensed fog. At that time I lost
my body sense and felt myself like a point merged in that dense fog. A feeling
was playing in me like this— This is the place for the origin of life! It is
called Ether!
Then gradually I
began to gain full sensation, feeling for the earth. Coming back to full
sensation, I began to think—was it an imagination or was it a realization?
I was in confusion for
some moments and then at night before going to bed it flashed in my mind that
it was the realization of ‘Viswarup’(Universe in God)—I saw the whole universe
in me and had the experience of ‘Jara Samadhi’—a condition when the seer
becomes a point only. The dense fog was the father’s semen which is the place
of origin of life—It is in microcosm. In macrocosm Scientists opine that ether
in the outer space is the origin of life.
Realization
of Paramatma
146. 10th
July, 1976.
Early morning
dream: I was going with Dhiren Mondal (A
companion of Jibankrishna) by train to his town Bangaon. But in the dream I
felt that the town was Basirhat instead of Bangaon. After traveling for a long
time we reached Basirhat. The town seemed very beautiful with nice houses. We
came to a spot with buildings on both sides of the road. Looking on the left
side I noticed that through the gaps of the buildings there were steps sloping
down to a very distant place. I also observed that the steps merged into a
dense, endless inaccessible foggy area with a non traceable base. Its top was
also sky high. The scene was beyond any imagination. I was thinking—such an
ocean of fog! Then thoughts came in my mind—How will it be, if I go inside
this! Suddenly I felt, I had already gone inside that zone, but simultaneously
I also saw myself standing on the road. It seemed to me as if I had fallen in a
very unearthly situation with no sign of life anywhere and only my sense was
roaming inside that zone. After a while I gained my full sense and went to
another place. The dream continued but nothing was remembered later on.
As predicted in a
previous dream seen on 21st June, 1976 that within a year the seer
would get married which in yoga meant that there might be a possibility for the
seer to have the realization of unification of ‘Atma’ with ‘Paramatma’, this
dream confirmed the same. Here in yoga fog means Paramatma with whom the seer
got united.
